Okay, got that out of the way! I walked to school, and it was beautiful, but cold out! Virginia's class was alright. I just sat with her while she taught grammar and a little bit of literature. She told me about a student who got really mad at her on Saturday...and...I learned a little bit...and I was sleepy and did not feel well! Fave part was when one of my favorite students in this class came in a greeted me with the double cheek kisses. That always makes me smile and feel like they are open to my presence here.
When this class was over with, I went to the computer lab to work on things for this week. I started a search for information about how Italian students can attend American universities. I talked to Nick a bit on his break. I had also gone to get a snack from the bar because I was getting VERY hungry! I got this pizza rustica type thing...so much for a carb fast, but it was good...I think the grease is what caused me to be rather sick the rest of the day!
For Angelino's class, he had to be out and so Francesca was there. I sat with the students and we watched Mrs. Doubtfire in Italian, with English subtitles. When the class was over, I went straight to the bus and wanted it to hurry home. I was NOT feeling well.
For lunch I had a rice cake with nutella...and two tostate things with jelly. Later I had another rice cake with a little bit more nutella...we are breaking up when this jar is finished...so don't judge me for my nutella intake.
I bummed around a bit and fell asleep because I was exhausted and not feeling well. My phone woke me up when Lilla called...then I talked to Nick a bit...then I went to the grocery store for some staples. I went to the big grocery store, little grocery store, and the fruit/veggies stand. Tonight at the fruit/veggies the lady recognized me...and then the man did...and then they talked to me!! I understood about 80% of what they said, but to be fair he has a strong accent. I was able to explain that I live here, and I am working as an English Teaching Assistant...in the two schools...and I finish in June. It was nice to finally talk to them, and to kind of let them know that I would be coming there until June! I like to have this regular place.
When I got home, my roommate was there, but had her door closed and eventually turned out her light. I worked a bit on lesson planning, but that frustrated me and I feel like I am doing a sucky job. I feel like I am drowning in uncertainty about how to plan lessons for so many different levels and classes. It is IMPOSSIBLE to do the same lesson in multiple classes...Well, I can do similar, but it is so hard. I do not feel qualified to teach the basics of English...I am not an English teacher and that is not my job here. I am trying so hard to just do what has been given to me, but the issue is that I am not doing what I came to do, and I do not know that I will be able to given the classes that I have been placed in. This is NOT about facing challenges in life, this is about not doing what I am supposed to be here doing. I dont know how to fix this because the teachers seem possessive of my time and want me to be in their classes, but I feel useless. Then, they think I can only be in the 3rd year classes, which is not true. I am afraid that they will all be mad...or not understand...I dont know what to do and I do not want to get Fulbright involved, but I might have to!
Emails, blogs, facebook, etc. were the rest of my night. I did turn on the tv for the first time since I got internet. I had Gilmore Girls on for background noise. I had a good night...a nothing night...but a good one!
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